Just recently, I've started thinking about where I wanted to be as an adult (when I was an early teen) and where I am now, at 30. It has a little to do with the subject matter of classes recently, as well as an overwhelming feeling that things in my life are unfolding as they should, despite some conspicuous and mildly painful bumps along the way (by "painful," I mean I am surprised sometimes that there is no blood shed.) Here is a layout of where I stand:
What I Dreamed 30 Would Be Like
Marital Status: Single
Profession: Doctor
Children: 4 boys, adopted, Asian
House: Large, white, a lot of glass
Pets: 2 large tan dogs
Automobile: Shiny black SUV
Interests: Fancy entertaining
What 30 Is
Marital Status: Married
Profession: Studying to be a nurse
Children: 2 boys, biological, Caucasian
House: Small, red (brick), medium amount of glass
Pets: One small white dog (with tan spots)
Automobile: Only sometimes-shiny navy sedan
Interests: Entertaining (not fancy), kids, healthy eating
As a whole, I was way off. I have boys, a car that is sometimes shiny, a dog with a couple of tan patches, may eventually work in the healthcare field, and I like to have parties, but those are the only similarities. I'm not as skinny as I pictured myself back then (I'm working on it), my hair isn't long, I don't jog for miles with a perfect ponytail and don't break a sweat (no, really, I though I would do that.) The life I wanted was very slick and fancy, but the one I have is happy. Sometimes, it's a little messy and smelly (I have a kid in a dirty diaper currently on my lap), and may cause a breakdown here and there (both me and the kids), but it's good. As one child is sleeping soundly on my lap this very minute, the other one is snuggled up behind me with his head on my back and certainly his thumb in his mouth. You can't buy this kind of affection. I may still appreciate a little "slick and fancy" if it comes my way, though. I am certainly not opposed.
PS- It looks like my graduation date has been moved up! I'll at least be a little closer to slick and fancy come July! Ok, fine, I probably won't, but at least I'll have a little more time to deal with the messy and smelly. :) The countdown is on. Eight months and counting...
The family. We are a little band of characters trudging through life, sharing diseases and toothpaste, coveting one another's desserts, hiding shampoo, borrowing money, locking each other out of our rooms, inflicting pain and kissing to heal it in the same instant, loving, laughing, defending, and trying to figure out the common thread that binds us all together.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
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